Wednesday, April 20, 2011

How do I save you from the mess you're in

Yesterday was terrible.

My dad decided to come home, pack, and have my mom drive him to the airport today so he could go visit his sister in Houston. Great. Glad that you're gone.

I woke up at 8:30 and everything was going fine. I called T-Mobile because the online account had us locked out. I found out that even though we'd left voicemails for my dad to stop using his phone because we were out of minutes (Wonder who's fault that was?)he had already incurred $38.70 in overage charges. So what do I do? I suspend his phone. So after that everything was fine through school and whatnot, but on the way home, I got a message saying his line had been restored. It seems he went to a store and had them do it for him. I called and had it suspended again and put a password to restore it. I put it out of my mind and started learning "Save You" by Emilie Autumn on my guitar. I even youtube'd a clip of the chorus.

Its really a terrible webcam recording, so excuse the quality.

After a couple hours of working on it, I got a call from a strange number. I picked up because I figured dad was calling from a payphone or something. I was half right. He was calling from his new cell phone. Long story short, I told him if he came home me and mom would leave him alone. So he got home, he packed, he ate, and went to bed.

They left at about 7:30 this morning and so far I've heard nothing which means everything is going fine. As usual, it will be nice to have him gone for a while. Its just peaceful when its me and mom.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Don't Want to Care

Have you ever looked so hard for peace that you can never find it? Have you ever tried not to feel any emotions when something equivalent to a brick wall is slammed in your face? Welcome to the current story of my life. So these family problems I've been not talking about for the past few blogs have really taken a turn for the worse. I think over the last two months I've spent a total of two minutes crying. Actually having a human emotion. I cried for about three and a half seconds just a few minutes ago while my mom was on the phone with a neighbor. I immediately realized that I was in fact being human and quickly pulled the tears back in.

In the past week I've written three songs. That's three more than I've written since last year. I guess music is only written in sadness. (Though one of them is about the boyfriend, so I suppose that one was written out of longing, or happiness, or one of those other non depressed things you humans feel.) I've rediscovered my love of guitar and I am going to start playing piano again.

So this morning on the way to school, I was talking to Ben. He's been nothing but amazing through this whole thing. I seriously couldn't ask for someone to be a better listener than he has. I saw him this weekend as well which took my mind off of everything. Nine wonderful hours spent together on Saturday led to a rough morning at home for my parents on Sunday. Me and my mom left around noon so I was sure I wasn't going to see Ben that day. By the time we got home just before seven I was planning on seeing him. Until I went to the computer room to clean up a mess that one of the dogs left. That's when I saw that my dad's computer was gone. Further exploration revealed that he also had taken some of his clothes and medicine. Surprisingly, I felt peaceful. I felt like everything was going to be okay, even if it was just for a moment.

To be honest, I really don't care where he is. I'm just glad he's still gone. I don't know if I want him to come back.

(Little known fact. The title of this post comes from the song "Better" by Plumb.)

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Look Who's Back

So after a rather extended hiatus, I've returned. I'm back in school and I've been slightly nurturing my social life more than I have been. This past week has been crazy as usual. Aside from everything going on at home (which I will eventually talk about, I promise), I've been trying to get back into the school mindset. Taking notes, paying attention in class, preparing for tests. I'm taking my first lab class since highschool and I'm actually surprised at how much I'm enjoying it. My other two are both essentially online classes which is nice as I only have to go to one class and its only 4 times a week.
The kittens are making wonderful progress. We discovered that Harry was really a girl so we quickly renamed her Morgana. She and her brother Merlin have started to show predatory instinct. Morgana favors a piece of string hanging from the towel rack and Merlin prefers Pandora's mouse that's stuffed with catnip. And speaking of Pandora, she has finally learned how to play with her new siblings gently and she appears to really like them.
Now as far as movies go, I spent the weekend rewatching the first 6 Harry Potter movies. I forgot how wonderful they are and I also forgot how much they leave out! I'm having a hard time waiting for the new one to come out on DVD. I just can't wait. Especially since its supposed to have a preview of the first scene of the final movie. I also finally saw Sucker Punch with my good old friend John who's home on leave from the Navy. I have one thing to say about it. Holy plot twist Batman! Now I'm not going to spoil it for those of you who haven't seen it, but for those of you who have, I definitely did not see that coming.
Anyways, I have a class to get to. I promise I'll be back soon.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Playing Catch-up

Day 26 - Best voice acting.

Wow. This was HARD. Also, yes, I know no one agrees with me. I never have the volume on when I game. I always have tv shows or movies running on a separate screen. That said, the voices in WoW aren't that bad. I usually watch the cutscenes since Blizzard doesn't add subtitles. But basically I'm retarded on this subject so I shouldn't have an opinion.

Day 27 - Most epic scene ever.


Seriously? This must just not be my day. I rarely watch cutscenes. I don't have a favorite. Hell, I barely remember them the next day.

Day 28 - Favorite game developer.

I have to say Rockstar mainly because of Red Dead Redemption and because of my excitement for L.A. Noire (which I preordered yesterday!)

Day 29 - A game you thought you wouldn’t like, but ended up loving.

Hm.... I guess this one was a hard one as well.  I can think of  a bunch of games I thought I would love but ended up hating. I usually research the hell out of games before buying them. I guess my answer would have to be the Resident Evil games. When I first started playing them, I didn't like shooting things. I wasn't that fond of zombies. That all changed rather suddenly.